Wednesday, September 18, 2013

The Mom I Never Thought I Would Be

A boy I dated in high school told me once that he could see me driving a mini van and being a soccer mom. Friends in college gave me the nickname "mom" after I hosted a movie night in my dorm room. Apparently my eagerness to keep beverages and plates full had somewhat of a mothering affect...

I never saw myself as a mom. That isn't to say I didn't want children. I just never had that vision of a family of four trampling through the snow to find a Christmas tree, or of soccer games and dance lessons.

When I was 17, I was certain in my mid 20's I would be in Europe. Or California. Or Ireland. I had this urge to travel, study abroad, see the world. Of course I dreamt of all the foreign boys that would sweep me off my feet, one or two movie screen kisses- but that was all.

Until I met my husband I really had no intentions of settling down. Yet here I am. Smack dab in the middle of a quarter life crisis, two toddlers, a mini van and ballet lessons.

I spend my days worrying about rashes, poop color {kids, not mine}, appetites, whether or not to change dish detergent, organization, decorating, laundry, not cooking and the list goes on.

I struggle with wanting to do it all, thinking I need to do it all, and knowing I am just not ever going to be able to. I am a mom.

To this day, it still blows my mind that I am a mom.

What blows my mind even more? The fact that 8 years ago I actually thought I would be in Europe right now.

A 17 year old me thinks I am crazy now. A 25 year old me thinks I was crazy then.

I guess I should just own the crazy and call it a day.

Sunday, April 28, 2013

30 Day Ab Challenge Results

In an effort to be somewhat more toned for this summers trips to the pool....I decided to give the 30 Day Ab Challenge a try. This challenge was trending big time last summer before I felt like I was in a position physically for it to really work....I was so excited to jump on the bandwagon last month.

I did the workout for 30ish days, if I missed a day, I added it to the end of the 30 it took about 37 instead. 

I lost 2 inches off my waist!

While I am thrilled with the results, I did change several moves.

Bicycles- I changed these to just normal bicycle crunches, I felt the burn way more.

Crunchy Frog- This move hurt my back so instead I did crossed leg raises. Lay on back, hands at side, bend left leg to put ankle over right knee {like making a 4 with your legs}, raise 12 times. Do 12 times opposite leg.

Roll up V ups- Instead of this move I went into plank position, then lowered my right hip to the ground, back to plank, left hip to ground, back to plank, for 25 reps.

Definitely check it out....I will continue to do this another month, or at least a few times a week to see if I can get even more definition by summer!

I will be starting an arm and leg challenge this week....hopefully the results are just as exciting :)

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Education: Motherhood

I never finished my degree. I went to one small private Christian college in Philly my freshman year, and then switched to another across the state in Pittsburgh my sophomore year. Then I got married.

I wish I could say I was motivated to finish, that I had an ultimate career goal in mind. I didn't then, and I certainly don't now.

I was the kid in the back of the night class feet propped up, chips in hand, mind on a totally different planet. Had I applied myself I wonder if things would be different....anyhow, I did not apply myself, I did just enough to get by.

I don't remember a single thing from those two years when it comes to education. Of course I do remember what teachers I did or didn't like. I remember where the hot lacrosse player sat in my bible class. I remember what times were the best to get to the cafeteria to make sure there was still some fried ravioli left.

Last night as I was getting ready for bed, I started to think about what I have learned as a mother.

I've learned where all the creaky spots are in the house, so I make sure to avoid them at all costs between the hours of 9PM and 8AM. I've learned where to place my hairbrush, the step stool and bathroom scale so that my husband won't knock over/run into in the morning and wake the kids, or heaven forbid, me up.

I have also learned how long my son can be awake in his crib before I start the shower so that he will still be happy when I am done. If I start the water too early, or too late- it's a greasy mommy day.

I've learned where to place certain food items in the pantry, so my toddler doesn't come running into the living room with a box of fruit snacks at 7AM. I've learned that if there is chocolate in the house, it won't last 48 hours. Ever.

I've learned that the only way to maintain a semi clean house, the dishes, laundry, toys put away, all need to be done BEFORE bed. Always!

I've learned that a little make up can go a long, long way.  I spent so many mornings putting on the whole makeup routine that it exhausted me. So then I spent a good two years not wearing any makeup at all unless I was going to a wedding. Now I rarely cake on the colors, or foundation. A little powder, blush, eyeliner and mascara and I feel like a new woman, a new momma.

I've learned that it is important to have something for yourself. It can change every day, coffee, chocolate, time alone, shopping. Lately, mine has been shopping and clothes. Pretty soon my husband is going to revoke my shopping privileges. Thanks to pinterest and instagram, I have reinvented my fashion style, and I am loving it.

Being a mom is the hardest thing I have ever done. I still have many 'classes' to go before I can achieve that Motherhood Degree. But unlike my academic degree, I will have to get this one, whether I like it or not!